Sunday, June 17, 2012

Married Life

June 10th.

This day is pretty important to me because on this day, a year ago, I met Fionn and my whole life changed. I remember he stayed an extra day in Berlin (deciding to leave Monday instead of Sunday) and the morning he left I woke up early and went with him to the train station to say goodbye. I was half sure I would never see him again, a little scared by the fact that I liked him so much after knowing him 3 whole days, and trying my best not to start getting excited about something that (at the time) seemed like such a long shot. He was going to be in Germany for the next few years, I was a summer intern with a return ticket and a 3 month visa, bound for the States. We lived 5 hours apart by train. How would this work? I watched his train pull away and got on the S-Bahn to go back to my apartment. While on the S-Bahn I pulled out my day planner and wrote his name in the date squares for that weekend. I don't know why I did it, something just told me he was special, something I wanted to remember.

June 10th became a special day for us. On the 10th of every month we'd always bring it up, counting how many months it had been since that chance meeting on Rosenthaler Platz. When I went back home to finish my degree, Fionn sent me flowers on the 10th. When I graduated on the 10th of December we joked that it was perfect timing. It's hard to believe we've only known each other one year, when I feel like I've known him 20!

We have been married six months now! I guess in the big scheme of things it isn't very long at all, but hey, we've beaten Kim Kardashian, so whoo! ;)

People keep asking me how married life is. Well, I'd say it's a lot like my single life, except I don't have my own bedroom anymore and I get to share my life with the man of my dreams. No, but seriously, for being such a big life altering decision, it doesn't really feel that way. Life goes on like it always does. When I was single, I thought marriage was really scary. How could you be sure about something like that? How could you make such a big commitment? More importantly, did this person even exist?

My friends and family always used to say I was super picky-I dated some very nice guys but nothing ever really worked out. I always had my own plans, and I had no intention of slowing down for anyone. I had started thinking I was just too weird to ever find anyone and that I was headed for a future as a lonely historian with too many cats...

but then an internship I almost turned down changed everything! :) In the craziest meeting ever we met on the street in Berlin during my internship there (you can read my post about the weekend we met here. It's funny to read my nonchalant tone considering I'd just met my future husband!) I heard him speaking English so I struck up a conversation, and then we ended up hanging out all weekend. And then every weekend. Within a few weeks, we were pretty smitten with each other. And within a few months, we wanted to get married.

My Chemistry teacher in high school once got asked about a picture of her and her husband on her desk. They were in front of this beautiful waterfall in Brazil on their honeymoon and some girls were asking about it. She gave them a simple answer, and then got kind of mushy and started talking about him and said, "He taught me what it means to love someone". Of course, all of us high school girls swooned over something so romantic, but when I fell in love with Fionn I realized how true her comment was. I thought I knew what love was, but when I met Fionn I realized I really didn't know anything.

Getting married has come with a whole bunch of changes...I moved far, far away from my family and friends, I left my beloved hometown and my life there, I entered a lifestyle that can break you if you're not strong and resilient. But it's worth all of it. Every day he surprises me with his kindness, his faithfulness, and his love. One thing I always respected about Fionn was his character-he's a good man with a good heart and I couldn't be happier or prouder to be his wife. When I get frustrated or homesick he's there to support me and comfort me, when I get discouraged he has a plan to fix it. He can make me laugh, make me smile, make me happier than anyone else. I love him with all my heart, I love spending time with him, I love being his wife. I could've done a million things on my own, but I never would've been as happy as I am with Fionn.

And the fact that he's smokin' hot? That's not a bad thing either ;)

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and tell myself when I worried about meeting someone, just stop worrying! It'll fall into your lap out of the blue and it'll be better than anything you could've ever imagined. And maybe that's what anyone who's wondering where their Prince Charming is should be told. Don't give up, cause you could run into him on the street in Berlin...

Anyways, I guess that's enough mushy stuff. If he sees me writing this he'll get all embarrassed haha. What can I say, I love the guy, I can't help gushing about him. So yeah, how is married life? I'd say it's pretty sweet.